Christine B. (Houston, TX)
“Watching the Candle” has been a difficult concept for me to grasp. However, I now have a better understanding of what it means. Visualizing a candle burning in my abdomen just hasn’t worked for me but understanding that I can control my body and mind is a goal that I have been slowly able to envision.
First, came the realization of how much I am a slave to my body and mind. Trying to regain power hasn’t been easy, but it is a goal that I certainly would like to reach.
Controlling my body through breathing exercises and focusing of the mind has proven to be a challenge. I have seen some progress. In particular, I have noticed how I could now reach a certain state of meditation and appreciate the peace that it brings me. I now long and look forward to reaching this state every time I come to the Dahn Yoga Center. My goal is to go deeper in meditation and for longer periods of time.
I am not a religious person and was never a spiritual person because I used to associate religion with spirituality. Now, I have discovered that you can develop spirituality without embracing a religion.
I have discovered how much spirituality has been missing in my life. I knew something big was missing from my life and I am searching for the real purpose of this life. I long to find peace.
I have become more and more aware of the fears that rule my life. The basic fear of death, fear of the unknown, fear of rejection, fear of loosing a loved one, fear of pain, fear of being caught unprepared, off guard. As a result, I am constantly on guard, worrying about what’s coming next.
I have a hard time loving and accepting myself, the way I am and fear of criticism leads me to always strive for perfection. As a result, I am enduring a lot of unnecessary stress.
What I hope to gain from “More than Body”, is additional knowledge and tools to pursue mastership. I honestly do not think that I will accomplish this in 100 days. I will continue working towards mastership of body and mind for several months. Maybe one day I will reach the enlightenment stage, but I do not really believe that I can accomplish this over a one year period.
June 18, 2001
“Watching the candle is the assignment of Initial Awakening”